Sometimes we get caught up in when things will happen. We want so much out of life. We want to be ambitious, successful, but most of all we want to be HAPPY. We want to be the best at all that we can. But sweetheart, it may not happen on your time schedule. And I know, you’re like me, you’ve thought about where you want to be in 5 years over and over (because they ask you at church and every family cookout). You’ve thought about the turn up you and your squad will have after you get the email that you’ve landed your dream job. You’ve thought about how you want to be proposed to on Christmas right next to the tree. I can’t forget how beautiful your apartment at 25 will be with a spectacular view of Cali, ATL, or Chicago. But what if it doesn’t happen exactly when or how you want it to?
A few days ago I found myself confused, sad, and sort of depressed. Before I came home, I had a few internship offers, a guaranteed car, a rocky sisterhood, and a game changer. When I got home, all four seemed to shift. I turned down all of the internships (except one 😉) because I knew they weren’t for me. My car was dead and I wasn’t sure if my mom and I would be able to pay the possible cost. I got a little caught up in thinking the game changer would want someone else because of distance (to think I almost messed that up smh). I felt worthless. I felt like I wasn’t walking in my purpose. I wasn’t speaking or doing a conference like last year.
What I didn’t realize was that I was trying to operate in my timing and trust my own LIMITED understanding. I couldn’t see that on Tuesday I would start what I believe will be my best internship yet. I couldn’t see that my relationship with my “bros” would mend itself. My car would be less than I thought. That the game changer is everything and more that I could have asked for. And that God would show Himself stronger than ever – in HIS own timing.
Is it hard waiting? YES! Do we want to give up our plans so He can do better than we ever imagined? Yes, but no. But the reason you should is because His timing is PERFECT (2 Samuel 22:31/Psalms 18:30) As you could see, mine, yours, and everybody else’s is flawed. I wish I could tell you when or how, but if I did would you really trust Him? Nah. So chill out and watch Him work.
I love you and so does He,
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.” – Proverbs 3:5
“Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered” – Proverbs 28:26
“And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up” – Galatians 6:9